rain rain go away

it's starting again.

just when everyone's getting along and things seem decently bearable at home, something in someone snaps and the things i hate about being here come to the surface yet again. and in a couple days they'll be things of the past. and then a couple days after that they'll reappear. a vicious cycle. i'm not quite sure what to do here. sit in this black chair and hear doors slam and voices raise and just ignorantly go about my business as if nothing is wrong. that's how it's always been. be an example, lauren. they need you, lauren. as if i know anything.

my brother didn't go running this morning. but, i, being the stubborn role model to a boy 5 years older than me, ran anyway. i listened to miley cyrus. its a great thing to listen to while running, honestly, because you want to rip your hair out while you hear her computerized voice so it makes you run faster in your fury. i think i went almost a mile without my knee giving way. i'd call that a great success.

it would be storming right now.

i went to a vbs meeting tonight at church. the songs we're doing are absurd. they're all about how we didn't come from monkeys, and not enough about God. ugh. and they're not catchy. how do i work with this?!

if you think of it, keep my boss myron in your prayers. he gets really bad vertigo and it hit him again a couple days ago. he was rushed away in an ambulance today because he couldn't lift his head without throwing up. poor guy. i need him to be up and adam. that laugh keeps me going.